The weekend after the pizza of doom I went to see a psychic. This is something my friend and I did four years ago when her engagement got broken off and I was going through a break up of my own. The accuracy was startling. I also went to see a palm reader in Key West with the ex before the ex, and his perceptions were scarily correct too. They mostly revolved around the fact we had to break up. Which we did a few days later (that story is still to come). The point is, if someone can convince me that they genuinely have these powers, I put a lot of faith in what they have to tell me.
Anyway, I liked this psychic straight off because she had a cat who sat with us throughout the reading. I cried a lot, and I left an hour later feeling much better about life. There were various things that led me to believe she knew what she was talking about, e.g. “I was dreaming about New York all night, have you just been there?” Hell. Yes. I had got back two weeks before.
So what did she predict? Well, the long and short of it is a lot of happiness. She kept telling me that this, “had to happen”. That my ex will realise his mistake, but it will be too late because I’m going to meet someone else and it’s not long til I’m planning my wedding. Then I have two kids, and two dogs. Everything happens in twos for me.
Although the concept of marriage and kids makes me feel quite sick at the moment (the promise of dogs, on the other hand, was music to my ears) I’ve kind of been clinging onto this reading for the past few weeks. I keep repeating those words to myself. “This had to happen.” It feels reassuring.
But after an evening lying in bed watching House of Cards, my outlook isn’t as cheery and rainbow-filled as it used to be (I really am usually such a fricking happy person. Like, to an annoying degree.)
I’m left with a very scary question bothering me.
What if the psychic is wrong?
Pizza of Doom 
Another girl who doesn’t get over excited by marriage and children! My ex doesn’t believe me that isn’t for everyone. That sounds wrong so maybe I need to explain why for me. I can’t think of anything worse than standing up on front of lots of people and displaying how I felt about him publicly. I’m a private person. With children, one born every minute was enough to put me off. I also worry that my hips might not be able to handle it. My sister was on crutches for her pregnancy because of her hips.
You should believe what you want to believe. Believe and think of the positive stuff. I read the secret a few months before applying for my current job. It seemed to work and I got my dream job. I’m going to reread it to try and help myself through my break up.
Ps I love your blog! Your someone I can relate to and enjoy reading.
I’m enjoying your blog too! Not heard of The Secret, I will have to look it up.
I’m not against marriage and kids. I mean, I thought that’s where my ex and I were going. He used to talk about it. But now he’s gone I don’t think I’ll ever want it with anyone else. Ugh. Makes me feel ill. It was supposed to be him!
I do know what you mean, though. It’s not for everyone. And it’s not the be all and end all. I get so fed up with engagement parties, hen parties, weddings, gifts, baby showers… I’ve achieved some great things in my life and nobody cares or throws me a party.
P.s. I have really narrow hips too!
You’re a strong-willed and determined person. The psychic isn’t wrong. You will be happy, because you will make sure that you are.
Thank you! I know it’s up to me to make myself happy. I just wish I could know that I’m not going to end up alone. Although I can’t imagine ever wanting anyone but him.
Something to keep in mind is that while a a lot of psychics claim to be able to read your future (and some of them have done this for enough people to really believe that this is what they are doing), it seems to me that what they are really doing is reading your present moment and following that thread to its logical conclusion — if you were to decide to change something and then come back ten minutes later, you might get a completely different reading. The future isn’t fixed. But if you stay your present course then the prediction may well come true.
On a more personal note, I know how much it sucks to lose someone you thought you couldn’t do without. The best advice I’ve seen given is to just be happy with yourself; and if aren’t, change yourself into someone you can be happy with. Then you’ll attract someone who is just like that, who is happy with himself and happy with you, too.
If it helps, the prediction of your psychic is actually the story of my mom and dad. Except instead of breaking up, it was divorce.
So, you know, it could be worse.