Hello, I’m April. And I know what heartbreak is.
I used to think that I did. I’d been through break ups. I’d broken up with people. And I’d done the whole crying for a couple of days and eating icecream out the carton thing. But – wow – I had no idea.
When I was 30 I met the man I thought I was going to marry. Perfect timing, right? I’d had my crazy years and was ready to settle down. And so was he. In fact, he talked all the time about us getting married and having kids. Which is why it was such a shock when in August last year he came over to my apartment, ate half a pizza, and then told me he had never been in love with me.
The past year has been the worst of my life, and yet – while it feels like my life hasn’t moved forward at all – I’ve taken some huge leaps of personal growth. However self-indulgent and weird that sounds, it’s really true.
So here I am. 32. Single. And while all my friends are getting married and making new people, I’m still just trying to make sense of life.
But I’m getting there.
I started this blog as a way of getting the terrible thoughts in my head out of my head. It’s turned out to be so much more and the greatest help in the world to me. If you should stumble upon it, I hope it helps you too.
Pizza of Doom 
Wow! You’re story is too familiar to me, but I’m glad you’re writing as I think it really does help! Thanks for following my blog and all the best with yours!
Thanks. I read your blog and it all sounded familiar too. Good luck with everything! X
You know what’s crazy, this story sounds quite like mine. I didn’t know how much guys thought about things because they don’t actually speak to you about what they’re thinking, and then they break up with you for the silliest reasons. I honestly hope that you’re okay, reading your blog is the greatest support right now, especially knowing that there’s others like us out there. X
It’s amazing how many of us have similar stories. And some comfort when everything else feels so horrific. Keep writing. It clears out the brain and makes room for the good stuff that has got to be coming our way. Hope you’re ok x
i’m happy to have stumbled upon your blog. your stories are all too familiar to me as well, and i’m super glad to see someone else who blogs about their broken heart. my ex and i broke up in august too – i found out monday he’s seeing someone new. i feel you, i’m not over it either. here’s to hoping it gets better – for both of us! cheers!
I’m you stumbled upon me too. Heartbreak loves company.
I’m so sad to hear you are going through the same because it is awful. It has been the worst time of my life. Are you finding things start to get easier? I’m so sorry that you had to hear heh as met someone else. I feel sick thinking of my ex with someone new.
Always so delighted to have a new blogger buddy x
I’m almost pleased I’ve come across this blog as late as I have, it would have been painful to follow it bit by bit as you wrote about your pain. It took me a full 12 months to be at peace with my break up with the one I thought would be the one, well not peace exactly but the place you arrive at happy and excited for the future and the hope that one day you will be adored by the very person you adore.
Hello! Thank you for your comment and for reading. Thanks for sharing also. I think it’s going to take me 12 months to feel OK again too. I’m getting there, but now and again it hits me all over like a wave of .. ugh.. dead dreams. I find it quite painful looking back on the early days of my blog. But it’s good to be able to chart my progress. Thank you for your empathy. The compassion and understanding of cats here on WordPress has got me through some very dark days. I’m glad to be in touch with you now.
I am going into my 10 month (after 6 years of “You are the love of my life and I will never be with anyone else ever again!” type stuff . Oh – and an engagement ring . . . ) and can relate to so much of what you’ve experienced and continue to do battle with.
Thank you for blogging.
I’m sad to hear that you are doing through that. Ugh. It’s the worst. The more similar stories I hear, the sadder it makes me, but also the more comforted. Thank you for commenting. Keep on going. We’ll get there. x
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