Ugly aggression

27 Feb

I think I have a few issues with displaced anger.

I’m so mad at my ex. So mad. Mad at him for treating me like crap. Mad at him for saying he loved me when he didn’t, and saying he wanted to marry me when he didn’t, and hassling me to move in with him. Grrrrrrr. Mad at him for not loving me.

I’m also mad as a March hare about some sh** that went down with him. Like when he got paint on his stupid shoes and trampled it into my carpet. And the time I made him breakfast, then went to the supermarket to get food for him staying that week, and when I got back he was still on the sofa in his underwear and hadn’t even put our plates in the sink, let alone the dishwasher.


Problem is, I have no outlet for this anger.

Except Irish Two.

Irish Two is a curious cat. He’s pretty much not affectionate. But he’s not a bad person. No, no.

Last night he stayed at mine. I had seen my therapist after work so a few issues were fresh in my head.

As a result, I slept very aggressively.

I’m ashamed to say that I kicked him in his sleep. I pushed his head off my pillow. I shouted at him to stop snoring and stop moving around.

I apologised this morning. I truly felt terrible about it.

And even angrier at my ex for turning me into this cold-hearted person who attacks others in my sleep.

What a bitch.

3 Responses to “Ugly aggression”

  1. intothebeauty February 27, 2014 at 9:27 pm #

    Aww lady! What did Irish Two say when you apologized?

    You need an ex boyfriend bobble body. For reals. Except the kind that doesn’t stand back up when you knock it down.

  2. theshanshuprophecy February 28, 2014 at 2:43 am #

    That’s not displaced anger my lovely .. that’s appropriate anger … these ex’s leave a lot to be accounted for .. they walk away scot-free and we are left in a sobbing heap … I hope they burn in hell – the special one where there are women who won’t sleep with the without a wedding ring first … or the one where they have no dicks and are surrounded by beautiful nymphs … one can dream right? 😛

  3. luciddream85 February 28, 2014 at 4:33 pm #

    Time to find a gym with a punching bag 🙂 You can’t help what you do in your sleep. And he didn’t fix the toilet, anyway. He deserves what he got. LoL.

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