Thank you 101 times over

28 Oct

Dear blogger buddies

This morning I woke up to find my silly blog has 101 followers. Not even just 100, but 101.

My little broken heart felt all warm and fuzzy inside.

The past twelve weeks have genuinely been the worst experience of my life. I know that probably makes me sound like a spoilt brat who hasn’t had anything bad happen in life. And, you know what? That might be true. But it doesn’t change the fact: this is the worst thing that has ever happened to me.

Eleven weeks ago, I turned to Google and stumbled upon some breakup blogs. Thank goodness I did. After reading as much as I could take in, I created Pizza of Doom so that I could get the awful things in my head out of my head.

What I did not expect was to ‘meet’ all of you lovely, lovely people. From my little bubble in London I’ve been able to share in your stories and share mine with you, whether you’re in Iowa, Boston, Maine, Toronto, India, Panama, New Zealand, well, wherever you are.

Rewind eleven weeks and I didn’t think I could get through August. Well, low and behold, it’s nearly Halloween. Honestly, there are days I couldn’t have got out of bed without your words of wisdom and support. Sometimes the only thing of any comfort has been knowing that you understand.

To know I have 101 followers (three of whom are friends in the real world – thank you, Jennie, Kate and Rosie). Well, it makes me feel connected. It makes me feel good.

I’m still sad every day, and I’m afraid I’m going to keep writing and moaning about this for a very long time.

But one day I hope to tell you that I feel amazing.

One day I hope to tell you I’m over him.

One day I hope to tell you I’ve eaten pizza again.

Lots of love, buddies. You keep me sane.

April x

11 Responses to “Thank you 101 times over”

  1. aprileb October 28, 2013 at 6:39 pm #

    As of a couple of minutes ago, make that ‘Thank you 102 times over’

  2. annemariehro October 28, 2013 at 6:50 pm #

    Oh! you will say I am selfish but I felt flattered when read “Panama” between the countries!! Hahahaha. I am glad we can read each other! I believe from the bottom of my heart that you will reach that moment when you will wake up in the morning and feel happy. Just happy 🙂

  3. jadedwildcat October 28, 2013 at 7:43 pm #

    Hah when I read ‘Toronto’ I thought, YAY that’s ME!!! 🙂
    Hugs. Congrats hun. I hope one day you’ll be okay again, too. I know the day will come. xoxoxo

    • aprileb October 28, 2013 at 7:47 pm #

      Yup, representing for Canada! Thank you. I feel pretty rubbish recently but, hey ho, it will feel better one day. x

  4. cristina.nogueras October 28, 2013 at 8:08 pm #

    Found your blog yesterday after you liked my latest post (thanks!) and reading this post today made me really happy! Healing is a sucky process but it feels nice to start looking back and seeing what, little by little, you are able to gain in the process. 🙂

    • aprileb October 28, 2013 at 8:31 pm #

      Yes! I found your blog yesterday and really enjoyed reading it. Nice to ‘meet’ you. You are right. Healing is the suckiest of processes. I know I’ll get there eventually. And every little bit of support helps. x

  5. Aussa Lorens October 28, 2013 at 9:04 pm #

    Huzzah! Future pizza eating in the future, yes!

  6. elizabethhiggins October 28, 2013 at 9:15 pm #

    Hell yeah, Maine! Start by eating dessert pizza and work your way up, it just looks like a giant cookie. And a cookie is NOT pizza 🙂

    • aprileb October 28, 2013 at 9:16 pm #

      THAT is the kind of great advice that keeps me going! x

  7. itsmylife1202 October 29, 2013 at 2:50 am #

    Hang in there and keep pushing forward!

  8. intothebeauty October 29, 2013 at 12:37 pm #

    So happy to have met you too! This is a growth process, and you are doing just that. Keep it up! xox

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