I have a huge presentation at work today.
I’ve been awake since 5 am thinking.
Not thinking about how to change the briefing process in my agency, or how we’re going to win more awards, or what budget my team needs, or priorities for the next six months.
I’ve been thinking about him and how he was never in love with me.
Three months is a really long time to feel this low.
I now have a massive coffee and three hours to prepare.
Cross your paws for me, buddies. I think I’ll need it.
Pizza of Doom 
Aw, I wish you lots of love and happiness. If he wasn’t in love with you then that means there is someone out there that is, you just need to find him x
Thank you. That’s a really nice way of thinking of things. I’m going to carry that thought around in my head today. x
Hey April,
I hope it went well. With someone as talented as you are, things are bound to go that way. Sometimes i despise these emotions so much for breaking or troubling awesome individuals like you.
I have my life’s most important exam in December, and I am trying to be free from this baggage so that I can focus on studies. I wish you the same. You don’t need anyone, you are complete in yourself and you have good friends. Isn’t that cool enough 😉
Aww, thank you. You always post very kind comments. It is awful, isn’t it? I have good news: the presentation went well. It was for two hours and for about an hour and a half of that I actually didn’t think about him. This is a first! I wish you the same relief with your exam. Go easy on yourself and try to get some headspace. I’ll be thinking positive thoughts for you.
Thanks a lot for your wishes! I have never experienced this whole thing before, its my first and that too after a 5 year old relationship. Actually I never knew that someone ‘can’ leave one’s soulmate. I left my job with Deloitte to be someone that she wanted me to be. She was everything for me.
More importantly, I feel awesome making people happy. In your case, I just try to reciprocate for the joy I get by reading your blog (except when you r sad). You write so well and you r so witty that It makes me forget my state for sometime.
Well you certainly make me happy. Thank you. These are such flattering words. I’m sad that you felt you had to change for your ex, because you sound like someone truly beautiful on the inside and I don’t think you should change for anyone. I’m glad my blog gives you pleasure. Although it helps me to write and get stuff out of my head, I also hope it helps others who are going through similar. There’s a lot of comfort to be had in each other’s stories.
When things were at their lowest point during my breakup and then I also had something I had to do like this one job interview I felt incredibly bad before the interview with two heavy things on my mind. I was really nervous before the interview and it was tough just getting out of bed. But once the interview was over I had such relief that it was over I had a spike in happiness that lasted a couple hours. Hopefully, you get some level of temporary relief because that’s what we really need anyway. And don’t beat yourself up about thinking about him…it’s only natural. It may take a long time but don’t stress about not being at a certain recovery spot at any certain time. Every relationship is different and will come with different healing timeframe. There’s no right or wrong time. I hope ur presentation went great:)
Thank you for your support. I think you and I are the same age and I don’t know if it’s that or just going through the same stuff, but I feel like you really get what I’m going through. You always offer good advice!
Also I love your blog a lot and want you to write more, more, more, so I have nominated you for The Versatile Blogger Award.
I look forward to your blogs everyday, lady. I wanted to nominate you for an award. http://intothebeauty.wordpress.com/2013/11/06/versatile-blogger-award/
xoxo
That has made my day. Especially coming from someone who’s blog I admire and value. x