Birthday benefits

3 Apr


I had a nice birthday, buddies.

I’d kind of been dreading it. What’s the point of celebrating yourself existing when nobody loves you? I woke up on my birthday and cried before hoisting myself out of bed and into the shower, then the office.

As it turns out, my birthday was just what I needed to remind me that I am loved by some very wonderful cats right around the world. Messages. Calls. Cards. Gifts. All so so appreciated right now. And all made me feel like I’m worthy of that love.

My team got me TWO cakes. Mmm. A delicious working day.

My friend Kate gave me flowers and bought me dinner. No guy I have ever dated has treated me to that double whammy. She’s a pretty hot date too, let me tell you.

Did I think about last year having cocktails and steak with the ex? You know I did. Did I cry about that? Of course. But, did I have a nice birthday anyway? Yes.

It made me realise I can be in people’s thoughts and hearts without having a boyfriend. And I might not have been good enough for him, but I’m good enough for plenty of other people.

Birthday benefits, they feel good. Tomorrow night I’m having drunkenness with a bunch of friends and Irish Two is coming along.

I can’t help but wonder if he might have a few birthday benefits for me too?

3 Responses to “Birthday benefits”

  1. intothebeauty April 3, 2014 at 7:45 pm #

    Aww, I’m glad you had a great birthday! You know darn well you can’t think the way you do about not existing without being loved. That’s far from the truth. Existing in itself is a beautiful opportunity for so many different things. A relationship is just a small speck of who you want to be. Always remember that life is so much more than that. I cried on my birthday last year too. I wonder if I will cry this year. Next month is mine.

    A little birthday dirtiness from Irish Two? I hope so! Sometimes us women get emotional because we need to get laid. Just saying. I’m excited for your night out either way. Wish I were tearing it up in London with you!

    Love you! x

  2. luciddream85 April 4, 2014 at 4:08 pm #

    FWB Fun!!!!!

  3. Nimish April 5, 2014 at 6:04 am #

    Belated happy birthday. You should not be sad on your birthday. Forget what has happened, get over it. Once again life will be awesome. I celebrated my birthday on 3rd april. You can check my blog post about it.
    Learn to stay happy. Life is short

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