“I’ll get back to you”

17 Dec

OK, I’ll admit it. One of the reasons I felt so damn chipper the past couple of days was B. I liked him. I liked kissing him.

2013, why did I expect anything good to come of you?

B and I had rough plans to go out tonight. But he would have to “get back to me” to confirm. Well, he never got back to me. So I texted him this afternoon saying I guessed he couldn’t do tonight, but did he wants to hang out tomorrow. He texted back saying he was busy all week, and when was I about over Christmas.

Not the end of the world, I know. But if he wanted to see me, he would see me.

Here’s something else that I’m slightly embarrassed to tell you. Last night I was waiting, waiting, waiting for him to text. I couldn’t stand it anymore and went to bed before 9pm (knocking back a couple of sleeping tablets). I felt so anxious. He didn’t text.

Why can I not stay calm in this situation?

I don’t feel stressed anymore. I’ve made my peace with him not being interested. I texted back with a few dates I’m around over Christmas, but honestly I don’t really expect to hear from him again.

And I feel better than last night.


I guess the worst things is when you have doubt, but the hope is still there. Whether it’s the hope of a third date, or the hope that this really is the guy you’re going to marry. It’s the hope that’s agonising.

Because it’s the hope you want to protect.

9 Responses to ““I’ll get back to you””

  1. jadedwildcat December 17, 2013 at 8:49 pm #

    Jeez, very sorry to hear. =\
    I’m exactly the same way in those situations – totally panicked and just waiting, waiting, waiting with a pounding heart!
    You’re right though. I hate to say it but honestly, one lesson I’ve learned is that if someone wanted to be with you – they’d be with you.
    The End.
    Serves us right I guess for prioritizing people who only consider us an option.

  2. luciddream85 December 17, 2013 at 11:42 pm #

    I’m not sure how I feel about this ….. :\ I hope this guy doesn’t need a swift kick in the arse. But on the bright side, no matter what happens, at least you got out there and you know you can enjoy yourself 🙂

  3. whiskeyinateacupp December 18, 2013 at 12:57 am #

    girl i do the same thing. i hate it when you have some type of plans, and you have to be the one asking if they can do it. its like they were just going to stand you up and not tell you anything! but for now, i would let it go and see if he comes back to you (: you put the ball in his court and now its up to him what he wants to do with it! hopefully he makes a slam dunk on your side (;

  4. intothebeauty December 18, 2013 at 6:51 pm #

    Ahh I’m with everyone else on this one. A little confused, myself! You have to take every dating experience with a grain of salt and try to stay calm. That happened to me a few weeks ago with The Drummer. We weren’t texting as much one day and I had a slight internal panic attack haha but I remembered that we don’t talk all the time anyways so it’s not a big deal.

    Like the saying goes, “Hope for the best, but expect the worst.” That way, you’re prepared for both. I’d give B a little space and see if he gets in touch. x

    • aprileb December 19, 2013 at 8:24 pm #

      Weirdest thing. Last night I went on eHarmony and B had just looked at my profile. And sent me an email. Kind of odd because we’ve been using gmail and texting for the past month. Even more odd because all the message said was, “Hello, April!”. I’m going to assume he was drunk. At 8pm.

      • intothebeauty December 20, 2013 at 2:11 pm #

        No way! That’s so weird. Have you talked to him since???

      • aprileb December 20, 2013 at 4:28 pm #

        Well, I didn’t. But what do you know? He just texted and said he guesses we’ll not see each other over Christmas and then he’s away skiing til the 6t of Jan, do I want to go out the weekend after. Curiouser and curioser. x

      • intothebeauty December 20, 2013 at 5:43 pm #

        Aww well that’s a good thing! I mean, the holidays are a tough time to make plans. The Drummer goes home next week so I won’t see him for at least a week and a half. Too much going on.

        Let this roll. He sounds like a good guy-just super busy! I wouldn’t worry too much if he doesn’t keep in constant touch or whatnot. See what the new year brings 🙂


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