I emailed a friend this morning in a moment of deep unhappiness. I’ve been very stressed with work this week. And I think I possibly saw my ex this morning. It was from behind so I can’t be sure it was him. But it was his walk. His posture.
Anyway, I told my friend that I don’t know what to do anymore. For four months I have tried to make myself feel happy and nothing has changed. I’m tired. And I’m tired of being tired.
He suggested that:
1. I throw myself into my new job 150%
2. I jack it in. Take a couple of months off to go travelling or relax, and freelance when I get back.
I would really like to go for option 2. I’d be throwing away a big opportunity. It wouldn’t look great on my CV. I’d let a lot of people down. I’d lose a lot of money.
But who the hell am I doing this for anyway?
Pizza of Doom 
You just have to weigh your options. A year from now will you regret that you threw this opportunity away? Or is it something that you can take it or leave it and not care either way? You gotta do what’s best for you.
You have to make sure that whatever you do you do for yourself. Dont stay in your job just because you are worried that people will look at you a certain way. Make sure you do it for you and you alone x