Apparently I misunderstood when you said that you loved me.
Clearly I got the wrong impression when you told me you’d never felt his way about anyone.
Obviously I got my wires crossed when you said you’d hate to ever do anything to mess this up.
And I had it wrong when you said – again and again – that you wanted me to move in. That we’d have two kids. And grow old together.
I must have misheard when you said you’d spent your whole life looking for me, and would never ever let me go.
My mistake.
Pizza of Doom 
*sighs*
It never stops replaying in your head, huh? All the empty promises that they said are just haunting. I still run these thoughts through my head. You’re not alone. Keep moving forward though dear. I know how hard it can be.
I’m just so tired of it. I genuinely don’t understand how my brain can still be doing this after three and a half months. I can’t stand it. I still love him and it is torture.
Do you think you might be ready to see him yet?
Maybe. I don’t think I can feel any worse. Unless I find out he’s with someone else. I was worried if I saw him it would ruin my Christmas, but if think my Christmas is going to be terrible anyway so maybe I should…
Only if you feel ready. I am not totally sure if seeing my ex helped but it did something, for her especially.
We talked yesterday. Things seem to be okay with us.
I’ll see how I feel when I get home and see my therapist next week.
I’m glad your ex was able to be some support to you right now and that talking with her was ok. I’ve been thinking Of you and wondering if you guys head been in touch etc. funny how we form these little support networks through WP, isn’t it?
Paws crossed this turns out to be a good week for us both x