Silly me

17 Nov

Apparently I misunderstood when you said that you loved me.

Clearly I got the wrong impression when you told me you’d never felt his way about anyone.

Obviously I got my wires crossed when you said you’d hate to ever do anything to mess this up.

And I had it wrong when you said – again and again – that you wanted me to move in. That we’d have two kids. And grow old together.

I must have misheard when you said you’d spent your whole life looking for me, and would never ever let me go.

My mistake.

7 Responses to “Silly me”

  1. luciddream85 November 17, 2013 at 4:31 am #


  2. thewholeheartedblog November 17, 2013 at 4:55 am #

    It never stops replaying in your head, huh? All the empty promises that they said are just haunting. I still run these thoughts through my head. You’re not alone. Keep moving forward though dear. I know how hard it can be.

    • aprileb November 17, 2013 at 2:22 pm #

      I’m just so tired of it. I genuinely don’t understand how my brain can still be doing this after three and a half months. I can’t stand it. I still love him and it is torture.

      • thewholeheartedblog November 17, 2013 at 4:10 pm #

        Do you think you might be ready to see him yet?

      • aprileb November 17, 2013 at 8:09 pm #

        Maybe. I don’t think I can feel any worse. Unless I find out he’s with someone else. I was worried if I saw him it would ruin my Christmas, but if think my Christmas is going to be terrible anyway so maybe I should…

      • thewholeheartedblog November 17, 2013 at 8:17 pm #

        Only if you feel ready. I am not totally sure if seeing my ex helped but it did something, for her especially.

        We talked yesterday. Things seem to be okay with us.

      • aprileb November 17, 2013 at 9:33 pm #

        I’ll see how I feel when I get home and see my therapist next week.

        I’m glad your ex was able to be some support to you right now and that talking with her was ok. I’ve been thinking Of you and wondering if you guys head been in touch etc. funny how we form these little support networks through WP, isn’t it?

        Paws crossed this turns out to be a good week for us both x

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