The beach

13 Nov

Florida is bliss.

I’ll let you in on a secret: it’s actually not sunny today. But, I’ve spent the past two days on the beach, so I’m not complaining.

The beach here is my happy place. Whenever I am trying to be calm and focused in life – in Pilates, before big presentations, when things feel like they are falling apart – this is the place that I picture. My family have been coming here since long before I was even born. Which is a looonnnngggg time ago. These days I am here at least once a year, usually in November when London gets too cold.

Walking on the beach yesterday I was thinking just how many memories I have tied to it. Running around as a kid, playing with my barbies in the water. Reading Sweet Valley Twins books on a sun lounger. And, as I got older, walking along beside that turquoise water, just thinking.

I’ve walked that beach wondering when I would ever find a job after I graduated university. I’ve walked while beyond ecstatic that I had just got my first role as a copywriter. I’ve walked knowing that in a few months I was going to work in New York. I’ve walked pining for my Secret Work Boyfriend, and fighting with the ex before the ex. And, of course, last year I walked along there daydreaming about my ex. So far this year, most of my walks have involved fairly sad conversations in my head.

But it’s got me thinking, I wonder what will be in my head as I walk this beach next November?

Looking out on the Gulf of Mexico, there’s nothing but sky and water. Of course, sometimes clouds come over. But, the thing is, they always pass.

3 Responses to “The beach”

  1. mick1982 November 13, 2013 at 3:17 pm #

    My prediction is that next November you will be think one of two things. 1) “I can’t believe how I made it out of that disaster last year.” You will reflect on how you have survived yet again when times got horrible further strengthening you. 2) My new boyfriend is the greatest in the world!!! I can’t believe last year I was so hung up on my ex and now I’m in a better spot than before.

    You will win in the end…I promise

    • aprileb November 13, 2013 at 10:02 pm #

      Thank you! Both of those would be great outcomes. I feel like, going forward, this whole year might just be a blip. Everyone has a few blips to deal with.

  2. whiskeyinateacupp November 14, 2013 at 6:48 am #

    this is so beautiful! its insane to think how much a year has changed! it really doesnt seem like a lot as you go through it in the present, but when you reflect back its like a whole different world. kind of crazy and exciting, thinking about where youll be this time next year! i hope its good thoughts (:

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