Well, this is unexpected

24 Oct

I went to bed really early tonight. I’ve been so tired all week, I was ready to get some major zzzzzzzzzzzs.

But I couldn’t sleep.

So I watched Netflix.

Still couldn’t sleep.

So I read some blogs.

Still couldn’t sleep.

So I lay very still and tried to lull myself into sleep.

Somehow, instead, I lulled myself into thinking about him. And now I can’t stop crying. The kind of hot, messy, gulpy crying I was doing 11 weeks ago. The crying that hurts your heart and feels like it will never stop.

Please, stop.

3 Responses to “Well, this is unexpected”

  1. annemariehro October 24, 2013 at 11:32 pm #

    Oh, sweetpie šŸ˜¦ Days like this will come and go. Eventually, all this pain will go away and you will be a different person. A better and stronger version of yourself šŸ™‚

  2. jadedwildcat October 24, 2013 at 11:32 pm #

    So sorry to hear =( *hugs* It’s so hard to stop once you start, I know…
    Maybe just best to let it all out, as long as you can. Eventually it WILL pass and you’ll get back to sleep and back to moving on… xoxoxo We are here rooting for you.

    • aprileb October 24, 2013 at 11:35 pm #

      Thanks, buddies. Tomorrow night I am definitely treating myself to a sleeping pill. Tonight I’ll just keep crying. No point in fighting it x

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