Surely I am running out of tears

13 Oct

Funny the things that can set you off in the heightened emotional state of a break up.

I’ve been very tired and very stressed with work for the past week. It seems to have made me take a massive two leaps backwards into painfulness.

Today, whilst shopping for a toothbrush, I had to walk into a corner and release a little screaming noise. This – I have learned from pilates – is something to do with stress release. It does also make me look like a mentalist, however.

Later, when I got home, I was searching for my electrical adaptor thingie to take to Boston tomorrow. Of course, the last time I had it was in New York. With him. Unable to locate it under my bed (where I keep most things), I completely broke down. I full-on lost it on my bedroom floor. I’m not even going to call it crying. That sounds too elegant. I was wailing. Unattractive.

I found the adaptor thingie about two hours later in the fruit bowl in my kitchen.

Which didn’t even strike me as odd.

7 Responses to “Surely I am running out of tears”

  1. whiskeyinateacupp October 13, 2013 at 11:21 pm #

    It is funny, the emotions that run through our bodys during a break up state. But everything will get better eventually, dont you worry your pretty head! some days will be hard, some will be easier. This quote helps me alot
    “Before something great happens, everything falls apart” i hope it helps you too! dont give up, hope will keep you floating!

  2. jadedwildcat October 14, 2013 at 1:41 am #

    So does the ‘little screaming sound’ thing actually help? Just curious. I know exactly what you mean by that but… my dilemma is that once I kinda start to let loose, it gets away from me and I prolly would have wound up HOWLING in the middle of the store!
    It has happened before :O Very unseemly but, I just can’t help it.
    So sorry to hear about the little lapses you’re having but… I’m so sure they’re going to be happening for awhile… =\ Just have to move on from them I guess.
    How long were you with your ex again, btw?

  3. luciddream85 October 14, 2013 at 2:45 am #

    It must be in the air. I broke down like a maniac as well. And this is even when I was able to talk to my ex (since he still lives here) and yet I still sat on the bed and wailed like a three year old. When does this shit get easier?

  4. elizabethhiggins October 14, 2013 at 10:22 pm #

    Happy Boston travels! I hope the time difference isn’t too awful for you.

  5. aprileb October 15, 2013 at 4:31 pm #

    Thanks as always, buddies. And hope you are all doing ok too. The time difference was a breeze. I was so tired from not sleeping before I came here I slept right through to 7 am this morning. It might both de so easy on the ways home on Thursday!

  6. K. A. Smith October 22, 2013 at 5:23 pm #

    I completely understand. I started crying in the middle of traffic this morning. I don’t even know why.I just know that I was thinking about my ex, an upbeat song came on, and I was running a few minutes late. It’s so strange.

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