I saw you today

7 Oct

I saw you today. I was on the bus, and you were walking to work. I caught sight of you as you were passing that café. The one we sat in after dinner on our second date, when we were too tired to go for a drink, but enjoying each other’s company too much to go home.

I knew it was you immediately. I looked at you. Properly looked.
You didn’t see me.

I watched you walking, past the bus stop where we kissed at the end of our first date.
You didn’t see me.

I looked at your face and tried to work out how you were feeling. What you were thinking.
You didn’t see me.

I thought you looked unhappy. And I wondered if you miss me. And if you’re OK.
You didn’t see me.

I really disliked your jacket.
You didn’t see me.

I felt sad. Seeing you as someone other than the man I loved, who loved me back. My best friend.
You didn’t see me.

I cried a little.
You didn’t see me.

Just as it was when we were together.
You didn’t see me at all.

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7 Responses to “I saw you today”

  1. Anne Marie October 7, 2013 at 2:03 pm #

    I simply love it. Great poem. Very touching. There is a song from Kelly Clarkson and the title is “Alone” great song. Actually, her songs are great after a breakup. Keep going girl! I know you will make it!

  2. jadedwildcat October 7, 2013 at 2:18 pm #

    =(

  3. Just Someone October 7, 2013 at 2:41 pm #

    The last two lines were touching! Read them a couple of times and could feel the emotion so well articulated. I hope that he gets to read them.

    This incident also reminds me when I saw her on roadside while I was driving to work. I used to take a longer route, expecting to catch a glimpse of her. She saw me, I saw her, she was talking to a common friend. I did not care to stop, nor did she gave any emotion. It did worsen my mood throughout that drive. That night, we exchanged some really pathetic messages. Now I miss her every moment, keeps looking at her pictures but i fear forgetting her voice, her face and the moments we used to spend together. I do wish to see her again but I fear when we will meet, the anger and pain will overpower all this love. So, I don’t know if seeing her is a good idea.
    It was after that I started writing the blog 😛 Now that she did not like me mentioning my date experience the other day, I have made the blog private 😦

  4. elizabethhiggins October 7, 2013 at 3:15 pm #

    I saw my ex this past weekend. He saw me. It wasn’t good. I’m going to blog about it later today.

  5. jadedwildcat October 7, 2013 at 7:06 pm #

    The worst thing is seeing them with someone else. Seeing them alone is hard enough but… you never really get over that horrible knife-in-the-guts feeling of seeing them out and about with someone new…

  6. angrybeeornottobee October 7, 2013 at 8:29 pm #

    It’s so beautifully written but so sad. You really are a good writer! At least there was something you didn’t like about him when you saw him – his jacket. I think that has a little bit of humour to it. Humour comes from inner strength.

  7. aprileb October 8, 2013 at 1:20 pm #

    Thank you, everyone, for your thoughts and comments. It was a weird morning yesterday. But that jacket – ugh – did he think he was going on safari? I don’t even know how I feel about seeing him. Thank goodness I’m seeing my counsellor tonight!

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